What doesn't kill us.......

This has been a long couple of months.  I swear I have been on some sort of roller coaster ride and honestly, I just want to get off of it.  I've lost a dear friend.  Another dear friend has been diagnosed with an aggressive cancer.  I was told I had had a TIA, only to find out it's Meniere's Disease (not sure which is the better option right now).  Oh, and a grandson has been diagnosed with a seizure disorder.  Yeah, we can stop the roller coaster right about now.  I think we are all done with the ride.

But we can't.  We have to keep on going.  If we stop, that means the Satan wins.  I have news for you, Satan is not going to win in my life.  Philippians 4:13 tells us "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me".  (KJV)  I'm kinda holding on for dear life to this one right about now.  Paul doesn't say some things, or this thing, he says ALL THINGS.  That's a lot of things.  Big things, little things, round things, square things, and oddly shaped things.  Then of course there are the things that aren't even shapes.  They are just things.  Anyway, I am assured many times over in God's word that I will not be left alone.

John 14:18 "I will not leave you comfortless; I will come to you" (KJV).  He will come to me.  God is not going to leave me hanging out there like laundry on the clothes line.  He will come to me.  He will comfort me.  So when I think of this, it brings to mind another verse.  Zephaniah 3:17 "The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing." (KJV)  A friend of mine and I noticed how much this verse kept coming up a few years back.  She painted a picture of our Heavenly Father just opening up his arms and singing over us.  I love that image.  He's got me.  No matter what, He's got me.  I'm going to be okay. It may not be easy, but it will be okay.

So, I have this diagnosis.  Meniere's Disease.  What is it?  Of course, I had to go look it up on the net.  Yeah, I'm all over that one.  So here it is, in a nutshell.  My inner ear is messed up.  I can hear conversational tones.  That's it.  Oh, and you know that feeling you get when your head is plugged up and your ears want to pop?  Yeah, that's how my ear feels about 50% to 75% of the time.  Oh, and there is this CONSTANT, NONSTOP, ANNOYING buzzing/ringing/whooshing in my ear.  ALL.  THE.  TIME.  Twenty four hours a day, seven days a week.  And I get dizzy spells.  That's what started this whole thing.  I had a nasty dizzy spell which landed me in the ER.  It was the kind of spell that feels like you are spinning around at high speeds in a tilt-a-whirl at the carnival and then you get sick.  Like pass the bucket sick.  About 6 - 8 weeks later, I had another one of those spells.  Only this time, I had anti-nausea medicine that worked like a champ.  So when I told the ENT about the second spell, that's when he told me what I have.  We can treat the symptoms, but there is no cure.  

Another thing is that my balance is shot.  Like I can trip over air, shot.  Guess what, that's another symptom.  Yeah, all this time we thought I was clumsy, nope.  I have a logical reason why I trip over air.  So, yeah.  I may have to start using a cane to help me stay upright.  No wonder I love pushing the cart at the grocery store.  I feel stable.  

So, I will keep claiming those verses (and all the other ones I can find as well).  It's going to be okay.  Because God said so, and I believe Him.